What is bothering me these days is the feeling of no control that has taken over my life and R. W feels that she will never feel the way she should about R, but doesn't want to hurt others (so will just mave a pleasent status quo) or put out the effort to regrow the R. So we sit in the middle with what seems very little movement. Do the giving space dance and wait for lightning to strike. I guess you could say I have her here, some basic needs are being met, but we are sliding into the "comfortably numb" stage again.
All I want to know is where is the road to Damascus and how can I get her there? Will I ever see some real change from a W who hates to admit she might have done wrong and apologize/repent? I know I'm in this for the long haul, but I'm a little weary of the fight. Grant me a little peace today, I need it.
