Well I fell for some of my wife's selfish behavior last night and here I am today feeling hopeless. Her forcast for the rest of our lives is that we can limp along in "a loveless" relationship since that is what our kids need, and that is all she can give. She did admit she "could be acting selfish", but that's all she can do right now. Doesn't want anything to do with counselors, since they tell her what she doesn't want to hear. I guess she figures the kids will have to take what they get, because all she can focus on now is her. I hope that someday my kids have the resolve to have better relationships than their parents.
At this point it looks like she feels that she will sink in her heals and do what ever she wants, at whatever cost she wants, as long as she can say I did it all on my terms, the hell with the rest of you. I can honestly say I have no expectations for this relationship any more. I will let God take over, let him take it where he wants to and ride out the storm. Personally I am a strong believer is dealing with your choices, not just putting my head in the dirt. I have given it what I can, now let's see where it goes from here. She would be the first to tell the kids to make things happier in their lives, but the last to do it in her own.
So I guess I will take peace in my own actions, she'll have to deal with her own. Maybe some day she will wake up and see the results of her actions before it is to late. For our kids sake I hope it's sooner than later.
