Are we there YET?

[BeingMe]

Hi Phoenix, I am sorry that you're on another emotional roller coaster ride again. Perhaps you should just coast for now in limbo. Try and take each moment as it comes, and live in it, and try and forget everything else. I know! Very difficult, but I am finding that that's the way I am going to have to live my life for awhile. So, although I'm not in limbo, but actually moving away from M and H, I still have to live in the moment, otherwise I fall into the Hope trap (hoping that things will work out, even though it doesn't seem so), or the Anger trap (spouting my mouth off, and it not helping any, because I don't seem to have any control over what happens to my M right now, so may as well just go with the flow), or the Victim trap (whining and complaining and feeling sorry for myself won't help things either, but it's a tempting trap), or any other trap you can think of other than keeping up a PMA, and GAL.

I am thinking of you, and will check in again tomorrow.