Journalizing

I felt it better to come here and voice my feelings before I cause damage to what we do have. Right now I am quite exasperated with the slow wishy washy way things are progressing. When it comes to problems I am a dive in and get it done or sit down and think it through type of guy. I'm not real good at sit back and watch and wait. So needless to say I am not pleased at how things are inching forward.

Part of my problem too is that I run a very busy day, not a lot of time to sit down and read and think. In fact, not even much time to be on the computer. Lately I have been holding back and letting her have her time and space, however I feel like I am being the whipping boy and lacky. My feeling is someone has to be the adult and parent for this house. She feels she is falling back into the "old groove" again, which she feels that's what I want. However now that the lights have been turned on, theres no way I'm going back to that state of mind.

As she drags this out I find myself becoming more and more irritated about the matter. I can not leave the kids and house, so I guess at some point it will boil over and I'll call it as I see it. This would probably not be good form so maybe I'll give my C a call and see if she has any words of wisdom.