I'm still around, just watching and learning, don't feel like saying much. The sitch has improved, I'll feel a little more comfortable, but a long way from home free. Since this is my second time through this kind of experience, trust is a real bear. So you can guess the advice I give out is from experience, however, it doesn't make it any easier.
Valentine's day was a tough call. However, it did turn out for the best. I got a card and candy. The card had some good things written on it, very encouraging. Some days I can see how I love this girl, some days I am mad at what she has put me through. However, I can see how she is slowly reaching out to me and I feel that I must encourage it.
So much more that I could say, but don't feel like hanging the laundry out here. Our whole problem in our sitch has MLC written all over it. Her strugle right now seems to be getting over the fact that with our life and responsibilities, now is not the time to go back and try to re-invent a "college lifestyle" to impress others. But I digress!
I am sure learning how to keep game face in this relationship. Perhaps the thing that bothers me the most is the fact that the person that I should be able to be relaxed with and share my feelings with, is the person I have to be on the most guard around and not show any feelings around. Going home after work is the toughest, it's like putting your feelings/freedom back in a bottle for the night. Well enough negative. I'm not going to get anywhere if I don't focus on what I know I need to do.
