I have felt the way you are feeling today too many times to count and all I can say to you is it will get better and these days will become fewer and farther between. It is hard and it does suck. I know exactly how you feel.....in fact I could have written the same exact post myself last year....numerous times. You will be okay and you are doing fine.....just a rough spot....we all have had them!! ((((HUGS))))
