These are all perfectly natural feelings. We all go through this. Trust me.
Your C is right. The last thing that you want to do is suppress your anger. It's normal--and healthy!--to feel it. Can you find a good outlet for it? The gym, and old dirty room in the house that needs cleaned? lol
I was angry for months. Griped and b!tched and the whole bit. Then...one day...I just wasn't anymore.
Quote: Sometimes, I just get so tired of holding it all together and being the "strong" one.
I still think this!
It means that you need to take some time just for you. Go to the tanning bed, buy some new clothes, have a girls night... But make sure you take care of yourself, too.
Quote: It's just not fair!!! I know, I totally sound like a child when I say that. It's just that I need to say that here so I don't say it at home. I am afraid that I am in a funk or a depression or something. Or maybe it's that I am just allowing myself to feel to much. Am I crazy, did I work so hard for all of this and in the process find out it is not what I wanted at all?
We all think this. After all, our spouses are still a mess.
So maybe the current dynamic isn't what you'd hoped for. Hang in there, one day at a time... Remember, it's possible you will feel completely different in 24 hours. I know I often felt radically different just throughout the day. (Still do, sometimes. )
And make sure you do some fun stuff together!! Build new, happy memories. It's a good way to get through this period.
