I was thinking, JJ, that this last go-around really made me understand and feel what you have been going through, the assault on your self esteem. I get it now. No one knows what direction the marriage will ultimately take, but you will come out stronger and happier.
Turning 40 is great! I really, really mean that. It's a time to focus on yourself in a positive, constructive way; I feel like a wiser version of my young 20's ( in my 30's I felt at times like I was drowning).
