Back on Track

[BeingMe]

I have come to the conclusion that it is never over - the pain and hurt and betrayals. I just found the OW's phone number on my H's cell phone (her new cell phone number in the city she has just moved to from England). He swore that he did not know she was in the city close to where we are moving, and that it had been over since August - all lies. Now he swears that he ended it a couple of months ago, on his own, that he realised he had been a fool, and that he always loved me. I don't believe anything he says anymore. He has changed his email address and cellphone number, but it proves nothing. I phoned the number of OW and asked her when she last spoke to my H, and she said August last year, which proves to me that he even planned for the possibility that I would phone her. So, it's all lies. Everything! Again. I cannot do this anymore. He is crying, and begging me to reconsider, but I cannot take it anymore. The only way this is going to be over is when I end it. I need a man who is my protector, who I can trust with the truth always, who is on my side, and puts me first, as I would do for him. I have no respect or trust for my H anymore. I love him, but that is just not enough. I will go with to the new city, so my children can be near their father, but then it's time to move on alone. He can have the OW, and hope he finds happiness with her, even though he says he doesn't want her. Yeah, right! Like I believe anything he has to say.