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[BeingMe]

Well, we leave tonight! I am terrified! I hope this isn't a way to get to OW! I hope he's telling me the truth. I am going to try and see it in the light that if he's lying, I can still walk away. I wish I could trust my H, but I couldn't even when he swore on the bible last night that he would not let me down again, and that he will be there for me forever, even after we die. Phoenix, you would know what he means. I just keep seeing the emails I read, and it seemed like he despised me. And, then the lies. I have to find a way to get over this. When I felt I was moving on alone, I was able to put all that out of my mind, but now that he's wanting to stay together, all I can think of is that OW, and all the things my stranger H said to her. How does one get all that out of one's mind?

At any rate, please everyone, think of me this weekend. Phoenix, send up a prayer for me, please. I am going to need it.