Back on Track

[BeingMe]

Well, we talked last night. I told him I knew OW was now in Canada, and in a city near the town to which he wants us to move. I was waiting to confirm that before making the decision to stay within the marriage. He still denies knowing that she was there, still denies that they continued their A, says it was a moment of madness, that he now thinks of her as an old friend from long ago. I am not convinced he's telling the truth. I told him that I will need some changes in him too, and wanted to know the reason he wants us to stay together. He told me, the kids, our history, and that he still loves me. I'm still not convinced, but said I would give him one last chance to prove that he can be trusted. We then went to my niece's house where the children were hanging out, and he told them all that we were going to stay together, that he was sorry for putting us through this, and that he still loves me. So, I find myself jumping back into the abyss. I am terrified! But, I will give it time, and see what happens. If he gets the job in the other town, I will consider moving there as it is a beautiful area, and a great place to live. If it doesn't work out, D12 and I can always come back here. I also told him that if I ever caught him out in another lie, that I will not want to speak to him ever again, except to discuss the children. I told him that mentally I had moved on, and was prepared and excited about being single again. Now, I have to rethink my whole life again. I guess, I wasn't quite done yet.

Enough writing - my brain is still in the "huh?" mode. I am feeling quite dizzy with all that's happened. I honestly didn't think we would get back together. I really thought it was over. Totally gob-smacked is what I am.