Back on Track

[BeingMe]

No, Andrea, we cannot believe their words, it seems. Their actions speak much louder.

I am not much into reading horoscopes, but thought I would check mine out after reading Sage's on her thread. Here is what mine says today:

We may not all be great artists, designers, writers or musicians but we are all born blessed with creative talent of some kind. The ability to invent is as natural as the ability to think. Sometimes, we put our imagination to use in the wrong way; we think up new things to be afraid of or worried about. Sometimes too, though, we have moments of sheer genius; we suddenly see how to turn an apparent problem into a great advantage. Get ready to be brilliant.

I will concede that I was feeling very afraid today, wondering if I should reconnect - AGAIN - to H, and try and work things out. I had thought I had done what I could, and it was time to move on. I am terrified that this wanting to continue our M, is just a way to get me to move to the new city, hence having his children nearby (D12 will not go without me), and then dumping me - AGAIN. So, not sure what to do. I feel I am going to have to come up with something creative and brilliant, to protect myself, and to test his resolve this time. I am not moving without knowing I can trust him, and that his motives are pure. Sigh! I feel, of course, that it is up to him to make it right, but I know that it takes two to make a successful M, even if it only takes one to get things going again. I guess it's never over until the judge says so, 'eh?! I feel confused, scared, and totally disorientated. Don't know what to do. He has completely turned everything upside down - AGAIN!!!!!