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[BeingMe]

What a weird, and maybe wonderful weekend - we will see how it plays out first. Slowly, I think you were possibly right! I will explain .....

My H took me out to dinner on Friday night - we actually had a wonderful time chatting. Then on Saturday we went shopping and he was so patient, even while I was trying on shoes. He hates shopping. We ended up going to a home and garden type store, where my eye caught an ice cream maker on sale. Then H says, "maybe we should get some new pots, and throw our old ones out." I asked him who the pots would go to when we actually separate, and that I would definitely want the ice cream maker. He just smiled and looked at me. As you all know, his behaviour in the months since Bomb 2, has been very bizarre, and puzzling to me, in light of the fact that he was the one who wanted the D.

That night, he asks me if I would want to move to this other town (with D12, of course) where he went for a job interview (he had asked before and I had initially said yes, but then changed my mind). I said I'm not sure, "what if I can't find a job there, and what about my studies?" It's a smallish town. He says, "no problem, he will support me". I enquire, "forever?" (Okay, this is a lot of he said, she said, so bear with me.) He replied, "isn't that what husbands do?" And, I said, "yeah! But, not ex-husbands." To which he replied, "exactly!" My brain was just going "huh"!!!!! And, it's still going "huh"!!!! We still have to talk about things more in-depth about things, and I said to him that I won't go unless I feel absolutely certain about us, and he said that he understands that. HUH!?!? He is really keen on going, and if we were in our R like it was 2 years ago, I wouldn't have thought twice. I am hesitant! I am not sure about him, and his motives! I did ask him on Sunday, why now? And he just said that some things have finally sunk in, like when I gave him the quote from Dr. Phil, "the best gift you can give your children is to love their mother". Who woulda thunk, hey!!!!!

I don't know whether to smile or cry! It's all so overwhelming, and I just feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I had so entirely got used to the idea that we were going to D, and had started planning accordingly. I had even stopped praying for my M! Go figure! One never knows what's going on in their brains.

Anyway, I guess we will see what happens, 'eh!