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[BeingMe]

That's just it though, he doesn't want to earn my trust. If he did, he wouldn't have lied about wanting to commit and being in love with me again. He wants the D, and now, so do I because I don't want to dwell on the past, and just want to move on with my life. What I am keen on seeing, is if he can be trustworthy during our S and keeping his word about what he promised me during that time and then the D too. If he can prove himself during this difficult time, then perhaps I will be able to trust him in marriage too, if that's in our future again. I may have moved on by then, of course. I think I need this separation, to prove to myself and to him, that I can look after myself and our D12. Independent, in other words. I came too much to rely on him - to look after our finances, helping with housework, co-parenting, being a friend and confidente, a lover, and so forth. Even though that is what one should expect from one's H, I still need to know that I can do it alone. So, even if he decides he wants to try and save the M, I am not keen at all, at this stage. Not out of malice, or spite, but because this is my time now.

Not sure if I'm making sense here.