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[BeingMe]

Well, I had an interesting anniversary. My H came home with a dozen red roses and some cd's, and a card (funny, not romantic, but that's always been the kind of card he gives). I was somewhat taken aback! It's the first time I've ever received red roses from anyone, let alone my H. He's given me red carnations, and other colour roses and various other flowers, but never the romantic, passionate, red roses. I am still flabbergasted, as I write this. Then, to top it off, he took me to dinner.

During dinner, he discussed a possible job in another city (12 hours from here), and I agreed that D12 and I would go with, even though we are getting divorced. I am rethinking that. I don't think it would be a good idea to uproot D12 from her familiar surroundings and friends. But, I'll see if the job even pans out before thinking about it seriously.

I just don't know what to think. I told a friend about it, and she says maybe he doesn't quite understand the reality of the separation and divorce, and perhaps he isn't that serious. Well, I am serious. I am not changing my mind, unless he changes his way of thinking, and I want to see some major making up for all the cr~p he's put me through. But, I'm not even going to entertain the idea or hope that he can pull it off.