The break for me, Slowly, was the final lie. The lie that told me he would pretend anything, even being in love with me, to save him some grief. This is not the man I married - he just wouldn't have done that. People change, I guess, although I never thought people would change their core beliefs so much.
Today is my 19th anniversary, and I have no idea whether I should celebrate or just ignore it. I did send H a silly e-card telling him that it has been a wild ride, and that I wouldn't have wanted it with anyone else. He replied, thanking me for the card and for putting up with him all these years. I actually just feel pretty numb now. I did go pick up my new engagement ring (I never did get one from him) today - I insisted he get me one, so that I can pass it on to one of our daughters. What a laugh!
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
I did send H a silly e-card telling him that it has been a wild ride, and that I wouldn't have wanted it with anyone else. He replied, thanking me for the card and for putting up with him all these years. I actually just feel pretty numb now. I did go pick up my new engagement ring (I never did get one from him) today - I insisted he get me one, so that I can pass it on to one of our daughters. What a laugh! 
