Back on Track

[BeingMe]

I don't know how long I can stay. Each day gets harder and harder. It's not just this issue that we have to deal with, but I think he has resentments from long ago. We started our M with him being very unaffectionate, he has resented me for not supporting him with a venture (long story, but he feels I should've been more supportive and not critical, but we had small children to take care of, and I was scared to give up everything, but oh well.... 18 years ago), then there was the cyclic porno addiction (he finally sought help for that with C, but it left it's scars on me - this was 5 years ago), and finally this EA. He, of course, feels that he is doing right, but I still feel he is lying to me, and hiding stuff from me.

Trust, once broken, is hard to get back, I think. I never thought he would do this to me or to our family, and at a time when I need him most. And to lie made it worse. I would've preferred the truth, as bad as it was. I found out anyway. I am tired of his excuses, for everything.

We'll see.