Like yourself, BeingME, I'm having a hard time with the continual day to day struggle. Although things are not as bad as they use to be, it's hard fighting the fight alone. Today one of my most helpfull friends during this crisis is moving on to another job. If it wasn't for him, I don't know where I would be. From here on out it's going to be an up hill battle. I too am trying to figure out if I'm up to the fight.
I've started going back and reviewing the books I've read and just trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong. Part of my problem is I grew up in a very affectionate house, it's hard to be in a stand off relationship. For me it's hard to show love and not come across as clingy.
My motto is "Endure to the end" these days. This of course is followed by, "It's not over till I say it's over". Of course the school of though of, "it's better to keep your mouth shut and not be wrong" seems to be fighting "how will they know what your thinking if you don't speak your mind".
Well that's my dissertation for the day. Not sure if it's of any help. But I think you need to know who your friends are out there and that we're here for you.
