BeingMe I think your "if, if, if" musing is what's killing you. When I was reading the following
Quote: If we didn't have children, and if he didn't feel responsible for me, and if the OW wasn't married with children,
I was thinking: yes but it's all because he HAS chosen you. He chose you to be the mother of his children, he chose you to take care of. IF it was someone else he chose then you wouldn't be in that situation to begin with! So throw those 'ifs' away and look at the fact that you are the one he comes home to, you are the one he takes care of now.
(((BeingMe))) I'm so proud of you! You were one of the first people that posted me back on my first thread and you were my inspiration. I wish my story would've turned the way yours did but oh well. I am not in piecing and I don't think I'll ever be there so I can't share your feelings that you're going through now. But go back to your first thread and start reading - wasn't your goal to get to where you are now? It's a process and you're at the end of it. Yes, it's the most difficult part but that's the prize all of the other ones here want! And you got it girl. Now it's just a balancing act to keep it.
