I have not said this in a long time, but it's worth a reminder "Love is a Decision." S still can't decide what he wants and how to truly commit to making that decision work. How different would your mornings be if S said to you, "Jennifer, I'm not a morning person, but I promise to make this up to you later in the day because I care about you so much." Heck, just that simple step should make him feel 100% better about the two of you regardless of the hour--and I'm sure that would spark some of the connection you are seeking.
Also, while it's clear that you beat yourself up for your backslides (something I do as well), it never hurts to remind yourself of your humanity and that we are NOT perfect. And working towards perfection is hard when it seems our SO is not coming even halfway (probably how my W viewed me--right or wrong). I really hope you two can work it out because I have many Yankees tickets to sell or give away this year--and you're on my client list.
As for Soccermom and Shirley Glass--I'm notsure about the article she mentioned, but Glass's book "Not Just Friends" was a real eye-opener for me.
