PWAH! Nooooooo, I haven't apologized to S. for the gardening thing... I kept the duct tape on, so I didn't say anything untoward... the only screaming and jumping up and down he got was what he read in my journal, which I have no intention of apologizing for.
Sure, I think it's a positive that he can express his needs, but I'm not sure they jibe with mine. I still think it's selfish, in light of the fact that we planted the garden (and at MY instigation) last year with such pleasure, and actually, it was an assumption (not just MINE) that we'd do it again this year, together (Him, last year: "Next year, we'll have to..."). I know I'm going to get whacks for this, but here's my question: Do I want to be with someone who withholds something like that from me? To me, it's a measure of control. He wants to control, and he doesn't want to share. It's not just him keeping something that was always his for himself. He's actually taking it away.
But it's not the defining thing in our relationship right now. We are still dealing with re-entry issues from being away. He goes back to work this week, and he still has an empty apartment in his building, which is a financial strain, and I have two new projects starting up in a week or so that will keep me busy for the better part of this year.
I just planned a hiking trip with my very good friend, in March to Big Bend National Park in Texas. We are both going to a conference in San Antonio (any DBers over there?) and are going to go out early and make the big drive to the park, hike and camp four days there. I'm so excited! It's supposedly one of our most amazing national parks (and least visited)... S. might have come along except he is going to work on a timber framing project in another state at the same time, which works out well. If we can't travel together, at least we're traveling at the same time.
Then his sister gets married over Mem Day w-e in California, which should be interesting. She's older than he and it's her first time... I remember my sister's wedding - should bring up all kinds of wacky feelings (for him, but also for me). I probably won't see any DB folks that w-e, as I'll be glued to S. and family. Anyway I don't think any of you are in or near Redlands?
OK, I need to stop BBing and get some work done...
