Ahhhhhhh... back from some energy work with my extraordinarily gifted neighbor, who works with chakras and oils. When I started with her I thought she was a crackpot and I was only doing it to humor her, because she identified such a dire need in me and wanted me to "have this."

Anyway, my work with her has been incredibly eye-opening, and I'm a believer now... she's helped me enormously. Things that came up (meaning things I've been dealing with, that are now "out" of the body) in our three hours together:

panic
exhaustion
swallowed emotions
isolation
unfulfilled
letting go

Do I sound like a crackpot with this? I'm usually very reticent about sharing that I do this kind of work, but today I'm feeling like so what?

And I went over to S's afterward and couldn't stop giving him little kisses. It was sweet, and he totally responded with the cutest blushes and affection. I think he was even batting his eyelashes! Huh. So didn't I READ the 5LL fer Pete's sake?

OK, now that I'm all adjusted, and thanks to some really inspirational reading over on Betsey's thread, I'm feelin' good. Good enough to write SD's prescribed mantra (LOL!) on the inside of my eyeballs and live it for the next few weeks while I'm away from my support system. Then I can come back and replenish my duct tape supply at the Stubborn Plumber's Shoppe.

Tonight, a friend is cooking me dinner at MY house, and I went to S's (as I told above) to grab a bottle of wine out of the cellar (wine that belongs to both of us). I gently told him he wasn't invited, cause it was a girl thang. We had a good laugh over it, because he was definitely vying for an invite, and after all those kisses he was clinging to me a little and didn't want me to go. He pressured me to come back later to see him, and made up an excuse of why it had to be tonight (and not tomorrow) that we talk about our trip. It was really sweet. In light of this little success, I guess I'm due for another plow through the old DR...

Jennifer


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