Thanks, all – I have literally 5 minutes, and so this is brief. Thanks for all the comments, and thanks for a good guffaw, SD. I know, I’m a train wreck.
Had a 1-1/2-hr.phone session with my T as a preface to our 2-hr session tonight with a new solution-based T found through M/V training center. (Just to set record straight, S. wanted to go to T, thought it was a great idea and said he’d been thinking of it too, made the arrangements himself, and came back a day early from Vt. to go to the appointment. We leave in half an hour.)
I am dealing with heightened anxiety at the moment, which I am trying to assuage with lots of talking to friends and T. Don’t know why the abandonment anxiety stuff has reared its head so markedly in the last month, but as dedicated readers will attest, it sho’ nuff has. So I’m dealing with it, and having some measure of success.
Here are some things I know: 1. S. loves me 2. He wants this R to work out 3. He is willing to talk things through and examine our issues thoroughly 4. He is not running away, in fact, he has been very present 5. He has good intentions, not bad 6. He is a lovely person, and so am I
So there’s where I’m at. Now just to put into practice. Sessions with a new chiro who is tuned into energy-emotion stuff have been incredibly helpful. He said he’s never seen someone twist themselves up as I have, and couldn’t believe I was even vertical, with my tension and the way I’ve clamped down my body and shut it down. So what’s the cause? Certainly not the laptop, though it aggravates it. It’s my own attempts to hold onto destructive beliefs and not let them go.
Hmm.
Anyway, that’s about all I can do now, and sorry I haven’t been around to check on friends, will try to do more this weekend. My best friend’s father died yesterday, and I have been on 24-hour support patrol the last few days. Very hard stuff.
Self-reminders: talk about S’s father’s death and friend’s father’s death tell about SM letter T session with my SBT
Very hard stuff. 
