Desdamona, You don't even know how much emotion you pulled out of me, from your story. I fear that someday, divorce/seperation is going to be where we are headed, and we too didn't even have divorce in our vocabulary, that wasn't even something we would discuss. However, as time goes on..... and mind you, I've only been married for 3 years. And I feel so lonely, unwanted, unloved, uncared for, ugly, need I go on. And I'm not trying to say that I'm anything special, but according to other people, I'm extremely attractive, I don't think so, but I get hit on all the time, and I try to look my best every single day, I exercise, I eat right, I put on makeup even when I'm not going anywhere, to hope that someday, he would be the one to initiate, but it still hasn't happened. We talk about it and it still doesn't happen. I feel so alone, I too, can't talk to anyone about this, because it hurts too much.
Going back to getting hit on everyday, that is a whole other story in itself, that even hurts me, because I seem to get more attention from other men, than my own husband, he even turns his cheek when I kiss him. And this started from the very beginning of our marriage.
You know I'm 39, and it took me a long time to finally find someone, and I feel more alone now, than I did when I was single, how pathetic is that. I'm beginning to wonder if my initial instinct was true, that he's gay!!!!
