I'm not certain that I have an intimate r with my h anymore. Pre bomb I would easily share my fears, frustrations etc with him and well now....I just keep them to myself or talk about them with friends.
Obviosly there's an issue with physical intimacy in my m...I don't feel that I can freely make physical contact with my h sexual or non and well since he doesn't often initiate physical contact with me that part is suffering and of course leads me to look at the rest of the r.
Sure there are some days when I feel a part of h's life..when I feel that "connection" or "comradre" but most often I feel like we're just ships passing in the night.
I don't know what there is that I can do to foster that connection and make it more constant...my suggestions have been shot down (ie the one night a week set asside for us that I requested on his homecoming that has been adimantly denied).
