Hi everyone. Well, we had the talk last night. I was nervous all night, I don't know why. So, I told him the things that I need from him. I gave him the whole list then added another one.

It went well. He didn't have much to say or ask of me, because he had already told me his needs. He said he was worried about me. Since I hadn't been talking to him about anything he feared that I had changed my mind about reconciling with him. So, we agreed that every night when we get into bed, we will talk about our day and how we are feeling. He said he wants to be my best friend, and wants me to be his best friend. He wants us to confide in eachother, no matter how painful the truth may be. If it means that I tell him I missed my ex-bf a lot that day, or he tells me that he missed ow that day......we aren't going to hold anything in. It felt great to be able to talk and get everything out in the open.

I told him that I do sometimes miss ex-bf, and I do think of him sometimes. So, he told me that his "thing" for other woman is fading....and it is me doing it. He says it's weird and he doesn't understand it. I wanted to ask him if he thought it possible that he didn't have real love for her, more of an infatuation for the way she made him feel at the time. But, I kept my DB'ing mout shut and took what he said for what he meant and was happy with that.

So, that was the night here. After our talk, it ended quite nicely I left him a "good morning, I love you" note before I left for work this morning. I came home to an I love you card with a "Thanks for the talk last night, it really makes me feel closer to you".

I am feeling better today then I have in a couple weeks.

Penngirl