Hi everyone! Sorry I haven't posted, been busy with work lately.
Tag- My H isn't really a "get to the point" kind of guy. He spends great time discussing things in detail, and expects the same in return. If anything, it's me who is the "get to the point already" person!! LOL. And to answer your question, I am inspired by Geneva, and everyone on this board. That is why I come here!!!!
There was no talk with H that night. He ended up having to go back to work as soon as he had gotten home. We both worked this weekend (alternating shifts) so the conversation never took place. He called me this morning on his way into work and asked me about it. He told me that I said I would talk to him and never did. I was under the impression that he was waiting for a good time for him to bring it up. (ASSuming) He said that he didn't want to hassle me like he used to. I really don't ever feel like he hassled me to talk to him before, but maybe I am not remembering things right.
I am having a hard time putting my thoughts into words. I really just need him to understand me. My feelings are very different then his. Point in case, the song I once complained about. He threw away the cd he had bought for when him and ow were together. He had made a copy of it on his pc and typed out the words to her, ended it with an "I love you with all my heart" He created that copy and document over a year ago. It still hurt me deeply to see that. I asked him about it, and he promptly deleted it, apologizing that I had to see that. He didn't remove the copy of the cd. I saw that as "Hmm.....he throws away the cd because he knew it upset me, but didn't get rid of the back up. Maybe he is trying to hold onto something with her." He saw it as "I got rid of the letter, and since this song was one that was special once in our marriage, I was hoping we could listen to it again someday." Now me, I am a sentimental fool. As far as I'm concerned, I never want to hear that song again. It would be too painful. To him, it's just a song. Now, I feel if he understood me, he would have had the foresight to see that by not deleting the cd, I would be upset. He thought that I should of been happy he deleted the letter so as not to upset me anymore, but instead I focused on what he didn't do rather then what he did.
My biggest need from him is something that seems unacheivable.(sp?) We are so very different that I am not sure he will ever really understand me. I am hoping that by talking to him a lot about how I think and feel (which is what he says he needs) will help us both understand each other better. That is something we never took the time to do.
So, that's whats going on here. How is everyone else doing? I will have to catch up on your threads.
