Thanks for the book reccomendation. I will surely check it out.
This is very tough. I had a talk with H tonight. He says that he feels we are going backwards. Everything he wants is anti DB. There is no "acting as if" with him. He knows that I am having a difficult time dealing with this. He wants me to be able to tell him what I need from him, what I want from him and what is going on with me. He wants me to let the walls down and be an open book. It isn't easy to trust your heart to someone who has broken it once already. I know in order for this to work, I have to atleast try.
Right now I am just so confused. I have such a whirlwind of emotions going on, that I can't seem to get a good grip on what it is I am feeling. H is expecting a talk tonight when he gets home from work. He wants me to sit down with him and open up and tell him everything that I am thinking and feeling.
How is it, that most of the people on this board, want to make that request of their spouse, but don't. Here I am in the completely opposite situation...my H wants is open with me and wants me to be more open with him. Maybe that is why I am so confused. I had totally changed my way of dealing with things and handling issues. Now, H wants me to act another way. Again, I know if I want this to work I have to do it. H has told me what he needs and I have to respect that.
