Unsure- I have talked to H about he feels about it and he stands firm that he wants to remain married. He says it is ny decision to make, and he understands if I let it go through. He will still be hurt by it though.
Tag- Glad to hear that you made it back safely. As far as your W goes, it seems to me like she isn't sure what she wants. I get the impression that her mind is changing daily on this issue. As far as her focusing her time and energy into your D, maybe she feels as if it takes some pressure off her and working on/thinking about the M and reconciling. Just my two cents.
As far as being on the fence, I am. I am not still angry at his past actions, I have been able to forgive. Hurt, yes, but I think that will take a little more time. I want this reconciliation, and we are working on it. I think that by thinking we weren't married anymore it served as a "safety net" of sorts. Now that I know we are still married, I feel like my safety net is gone. Top that off with the fact that I am on a deadline for a decision and it just makes it a little stressful. I know I am over-analyzing this thing and thinking it to death. That's what I do sometimes, it is something that I am still working on.
H and I went out Friday to a restaurant that we usually go every year for our anniversary. It was nice to be there with him. We had a great time and enjoyed each other's company. We did a little shopping and came home and watched a movie. All in all it was a great night.
