Thanks for the input Nevanna, it is appreciated. Keep it coming.
This week is a rough one so far. In a recent conversation about the EA, wife told me of her "terms of endearment" that OM and wife called each other. She claimes that she kept the one she uses for me sacred. (This was just tremendously painful) . Friday, in a phone call, she called me by one of his pet names, by accident. CRUSHING!!! This week we have had her mother in town, so I already feel like a huge third wheel (always happens), and there has been no "us" time. Really don't like feeling this way. Feeling very insecure, and not feeling "chosen". Can't really talk about it or do anything with my Mother-in-Law here.
Rough night last night. Can't shut out the painful thoughts and feelings that have resurfaced. So much so, I don't really want to spend another night in the same bed with my wife until I can get a better grip on my feelings. I am just feeling way too needy and desperate. Not an attractive combination. Don't want our "moments" together to be out of desperate neediness, but out of genuine feelings. Tough to stick to this, in the long and lonely hours of the night.
