Hey all...I haven't gone away again just ye lol. H was clenaing house on the computers so they were unavailable all weekend.

I know I still haven[t gotten in to why I am back posting. I will try to do that later this evening when things settle around here a bit. My evenings are ususally pretty full with animal chores and all.

H and I had a good weekend for the most part. it was a little rough the first night or so but mostly because he was so tired and wrung out from the previous 10 days. Once he got rested up it went well. We even did some R talking off and on which went well. It bothers him that i still need a lot of reassurance but he seems to accept it fo the most part. I just have to be VERY careful with my tone of voice and wording. Part of the problem I see here is that I stuttered for so long that he got use to that form of communication and he doesn't truly know how to interpret our convos now that i don't. There is no filling in the blanks or anticipating the direction I am trying to go. In the same vein I am re-learning how to express myself properly all over again. I am overly blunt now...even moreso than I was before (no frustration to slow me down )and it leads to some bad moments. We are learning though.

My meds are truly givning me fits. i feel lousy and then i had a szr the other night. I pretty much expected it to happen feeling the way I did. I am taking consolation though in it being 2 mos between szr's. That is the longest I have gone in the 5 1/2 yrs i have been having them ! I'll get eher sooner or later :D

By for now,
Zoo

"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm." - Mahatma Gandhi