Hey Booby (HA...just had to put that up there for old times sake )

Yeah, you are right about the spending way too much time alone. I use to get a little break form it by going over to my parents house but after a while that even started getting stressful. My mom was getting really difficult to talk too...as in, she wanted to do all of the talking and as soon as i would try to say something would totally tune me out. I mean, like get up from the table and start cleaning house or doing dishes or something Something truly isn't right there...I'm worried about ahlzimers or something on a mental level. I tried to convince her to go back on her AD's but that was a no go.

I don't know how to deal with the alone issue. It is difficult since i can't drive. I am pretty much tied to the house. I do things around here but it is hard to stay motivated. You can only clean a chicken coop so many times lol. I know I am having some minor depression issues as well. Nothing bad enough to warrant going back on AD's yet...if I reach that point though I will be calling my shrink again. It would be nice though if we did live closer to each other

I have toyed with trying to see a counselor to help me with my anger issues. I would have to involve H though in order to get me back and forth. I'm worried too that he might think I am having second thoughts or thinking there is a problem with the M or that he is cheating again. It wouldn't matter if I told him otherwise...he seems to always make that ASSumption when it comes to my emotions I'm pretty sure there is a lot of guilt there tht he won't admit to freely. I can't think of any other reason he is so quick to jump on thta ASSumption.

I am going to look for some agility videos and try to work with Lady. I have been working with her on basic obedience and teaching her some tricks. Her willingness to please is intense but on the same hand she is so focused on ME and the reward that she loses interest rapidly with what I am trying to teach her. I figure the agility would give me some exercise too

I don't know about swinging the ol'2x4 lol. From what I have been reading it seems that no one is really in to straight talk anymore A lot of validating, which is all well and good but what about when someone needs a kick in the butt once in awhile?? Maybe it's because your sitch has mellowed

Thanks for dropping by...I really appreciate it

Hugz,
Zoo

"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm." - Mahatma Gandhi