Zoo has made some excellent points. Although I have not been following your sitiuation from the beginning, I have to agree that your actions on New Year's eve was wrong.
We all deserve happiness and I suspect that I could be tempted easily by a shiny penny. Its has been a long time since I've been given any attention.
I sense you want your M to work. Look at Zoo's first post and think about some of those questions for a couple of days.
