Man have you been through spin cycle that's lasted years. I remember you from a few years ago. You were moving state and your WAW at the time decided to commit to your R. How long did that last?
I was going to beat you over the head until I caught up on your posts. Your WAW has flipped flopped so much but mostly flopped. I couldn't imagine the pain of living with someone you loved so much when they kept on trying to find someone better than you online.
You've been her backup plan for way too long. I hate to say it thought, you've been a doormat for way too long also so you gotta cop some of the responsibility.
It's easy to advise newcomers on what to do but it's hard to advise someone what to do especially when they've had years to contemplate what to you.
You know I hate to say it but your WAW has been a deadbeat W for far too long and she sounds like a deadbeat mother going by your previous post and a few others I read today.
Even as it is suggested that you give her another chance, how long do you think it is going to be she starts pulling that crap on you again? How the he!! can anyone trust someone like that?
I know that forgiveness is a gift but you first need to forgive yourself and the mistakes that you have made before you can forgive anyone else. You need to do that first and then decide how you will forgive her.
Hang in there Kevin and do what's best for you and your son. You may have not been the best DBer in the world but it is a very hard doctrine to grasp and engender.
You are a very emotional guy and you express yourself emotionally and it's the reason you kept backsliding like the pole was greased. That's you. You've been that way for too long and it would be an injustice to yourself and your son if gave up who you were.
Kevin, you are right about one thing. You deserve better. I do think in the back of my mind that you will cave in sometime soon and give your W another chanced. If you do that before she has irreversibly changed, on the strength (or weakness) of another one of her broken promises or failure to follow through, you will lose the opportunity of a lifetime.
Suit
"It's better to have no spouse than have a bad spouse"
