What the hell am I doing????

[JustLearning]

hi kevinlost, isn't life ironic sometimes? Just when we give up all hope of saving our M then our S decides they can't live without us!

My first thought after reading your post is counseling. Have you thought about you and your W going to a MC? If she is now fighting to get you back, would this be something she would agree to?

There have been times when I wished I was in your position. But there are other times when I'm really glad that I'm not. I just live my life, do my thing and let my H flap around in the breeze. It actually becomes humorous at times, the things he does or says.

In your sitch, you have been thru the wringer, and seems like you've had enough. Only you know whether you are done with this R or not. But remember that the rule is do not make any huge decisions when you are in an emotional state. Take the time to examine the sitch and your feelings.

Those feelings you got from your friend, they are wonderful. If your W is willing to work on the R, is there any chance (however remote it seems) that you could feel those things with your W again? It takes really hard work, but it does seem you finally got your W attention. Maybe now she is really ready to change.

Good luck in your decisions, I hope you find the happiness you've been looking for.

JL