Thank you for such positive assessment. Unfortunatelly I'm not home free yet. I feel/know my SBXH is still lying to me despite the fact that I made it very clear that I'm ready for D to happen and whatever changes are happening with me are happening FOR me. He obviously is keeping up with OW (not as pursuing as he used to be but when the contact is made he lies about it or sneaks around -still) which I still find very disrespectful. It's literally just a matter of weeks and if he really isn't all that interested anymore in her as he says he isn't, then even more reasons to be able to put it on temporary hold or limit to work only (so it's not rubbed in my face - I still know it's happening though so I'm not in denial). I lost not only trust but also respect for him and continue to go on negative in that aspect instead of rebuilding it in order for frienship to actually be possible.
I really don't think he understands how his actions are affecting the outcome of our possible F relationship. Just as he was throwing at me the "time will tell" and "actions speak louder than words" when I asked him for another chance, he is not giving me the same treatment.
Well, such is life and it's a great unknown that we should be waking up greatful each day to discover. At this point I have a lot of pressing things at work to take care of (staffing changes that will happen next week as well as location change that will happen in the next couple of months) which helps me to detach myself even more so.
He seems to be rather supportive of what I'm going through work related but it actually makes me more furious because one of the things he brought up with MC was that I would come home and bitch and moan about my work and he just did not give a $hit at that point. Suddenly he is all concerned because whatever happens with me work related might affect where I'm going to end up living. I needed that support before just like he needed what he was expecting of me before. Is it too little too late for both of us? His favorite thing should be said right now "time will tell"
