sun

I really did not take any offense. I have been very foolish at the beginning not to jump to the occasion after the first MC session and he stopped everything after that. Once I got on bb (about a month into the whole bomb scene) I was the one who started to approach him and he was freaking out. At this point he initiates it again or I act AS IF and just mention that I"m frisky and see if he goes for it. If not - I don't pressure.

I really don't know what to think about him opening up to me - we are both trying to save the friendship aspect of our R and I just learned not to get my hopes up (since I detached and dropped the rope) and now I attribute it to more of the "friends sharing things" than to anything else. I know that the big thing in DBing is looking for positives no matter how small they are but honestly- I'm DBing for myself now and when it comes to the M- if it happens, it happens. Maybe it's not the best attitude but it works for me. It actually allows me to have many more "happier" days than I had in the past.

I'm going to catch up on your thread sun and see if I can offer any suggestions or point out the positives I know how it is when we get too close and feel as if we were hamsters in the cage scratching to get out.