psluke
I know it takes two. I'm just learning more and more when I went wrong. I'm not kidding myself and trying to pass the blame on him since he is not here to defend himself. I know there is plenty that he could've done and I know what he did do cannot be justified with any excuses and classified under - I did this because you did not do that. That's all about the choices we made. I am just acknowledging that I made some poor choices myself.
I'm still going to read that book to make me feel better. I also want as much guidance to make wise choices in the future. I'm sure I'll make mistakes - that's the name of the game which is life. But again, I want to learn learn learn!
Okay, SBXH called 20 min ago and he is on the way (first bus was a no show so he'll be home later than usual). I asked him if he was hungry - he said he was starving. I'm going to be a good STBXW and go get started on dinner
