I agree with you - he is confused and he will not stop the D. I tried to clean up the house a bit and it breaks my heart knowing that it's really not my house anymore. I'm trying to picture my new place - I'm taking a lot of the furniture with me and it's going to make it hard because it will still feel like his ghost is with me. We had such a good life together and it's hard to belief that it ended way before I got clued in. With winter and the first major storm coming I can't stop but going back in the memory to the last big storm when I thought I had all I ever wanted - great H, great house, great pets, great job. Everything was great and yet it wasn't.
Well, I probably should start reading those books I got today. I will start with Mars and Venus starting over because I need some assurance that my life without him will be good.
