You are doing great and it is very normal that you are going to have ups and downs.
It is a tough and emotional sitch you are in right now.
I think your H still very much cares, I don't know that he will stop the D but he is definitely confused sounding and seems to be interacting with you in a better way than he was before.
Keep up the good work.
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Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"