(((Sportster))) Babe, it's okay that you sent that text. It's something you felt you needed to do and now it's in the past. Next time it happens you'll know what to do because now you will know his reaction to it (or lack of thereof- whichever comes).

I'm still trying to figure something out. I keep thinking about my SBXH talking about actions over words, time will tell etc. I am starting to think that he wants the D to happen because it will be the ultimate test at this point. If I am able to stay friends with him after the D is final, that means I really do want him in my life and he can trust me again? That's just something that popped in my head after reading a lot of Calysta's posts and having flashbacks (her story is SO similar to mine except that they separated much sooner). I'm going to go back to reading her posts and seeing where it will lead me.