Thank you. At this point I feel that all I need is encouragment and assurance that no matter what life will turn out good for me.
Interesting thing - I'm going to spend V day with my parents in Chicago and I decided that while there I'll revisit the psychic my mom and I went to after my brother passed away. A lot of things she told me were true (past and future) or came true, unfortunatelly she also told me that my SBXH and I will have kids and move to warmer state within the next 2 years plus that it will be me who has an affair about 6-9 years down the road now. Obviously that's not going to happen although she did say my marriage was in trouble (that was the time when H was starting to pursue OW and I had no clue). Anyway, I was afraid that I won't get to see her because she's been silent for a while (a lot of people my parents know tried to schedule appts with her and she did not get back to them) and just today I got a phone call from her and she'll see me on the day that I fly in. It's weird - I know I shouldn't bet my life on what she has to say but it's a form of therapy for me. She helped me when my brother died (when dealing with his death) and I hope she'll help me dealing with the D.
