You're going to be okay, and yes, one day this will be a distant memory. You're taking good care of yourself both financially and emotionally it would appear from what you've said. You also have the satisfaction of having done the right thing by trying to save your M against great odds. I admire your willingness to continue to face the fire.
We're all going through the same thing and support you 100%.
ShawnL
So if you're tired of that same old story, turn some pages. I'll be ready when you are able, to roll with the changes. - REO Speedwagon