Feeling weird today. Last night I came home and got a proposal of settlement agreement that my L sent me (it's what my SBXH's L prepared). I am disappointed in the offer, if this is more generous than his L was recommending, I don't want to think what was the initial number (my SBXH told me that he asked his L to increase the number in my favor). Of course this is just the first draft, I will need to call my L and schedule an appt to work on my answer. Probably next week when we have that phone conference with the judge.
I guess I'm feeling more sad today since it's becoming so final. I knew that it did for a long time but the more tangible things get the sadder I get.
Last night before falling asleep I cried a little - just missing feeling loved, missing the ability to make new happy memories with my SBXH.
