(((sportster))) I was over at your thread (I was wondering what happened to you and did not realize you started a new one! ) and noticed that there is a lot of new developments on your front - a lot of things to deal with and be distracted by. I guess you should deal with it the same way we told Shawn to deal with occasional road blocks - look for the positives.

Today was my day off and I had a friend over cooking for me- she stayed for 6 hrs, we ate and watched a movie ("love actually") and we talked and talked. It's really therapeutic for me to talk my feelings out - I used to hide them and here is where they got me. Everyone can't get over how much insight and how much wisdom I have. I keep giving credit to DR, DB, BB and the willingness to learn from as many different sources as possible.

I also had a psych appt tonight - she felt I was doing much better but I still need to focus more on me. Not sure if I'm happy with what she has to offer. Probably will make my next visit in two weeks our last.

SBXH just called (did not pick up the phone, let the machine get it) saying what bus he is catching and what time he will most likely be home. He sounded very robotic, as if he was mad I did not pick up. Whatever, I'm done with assumptions (when I was waiting for my appt I picked up a book in the waiting room - one of those self help things- and I read a chapter on assumptions and their destructive powers) and letting his issues absorb me. I'm going to take my weird syrup and call it a night. Hopefully I'll be asleep by the time he gets home.

Love you all people! I might not be liking what's happening but I know I'll be liking my life when I take control over it!