psluke I'm definitelly experiencing the joy of sex and I just feel like kicking my butt for not breaking though that barrier earlier. I would've been such a happy person and would probably avoid being in the situation I am in now. But, as I said before 'better late than never'. Despite my SBXH saying "it's all wasted" - yeah, maybe my M was in terms of what it was supposed to be (on different levels) was technically wasted, but the experience, the love I felt and found out I had in me, the deep search that I would've NEVER gone for if it wasn't for that sitch, that was all worth it. Cruel and bitter life lesson but boy have I learned....
