Well then I am happy that this is a 180 for you! And if you feel better after you do it, then it was the right thing to do. During this whole sitch this time, I have had to wrestle with alot of decisions. And I found if I had to think about it forever, and one way felt bad and the other felt good, like I would have no remorse over it, the thats the way I would go. He didn't refuse your hug,right? He was pleasantly surprised. Although, in his male brain he was probably thinking" Well M'am you are welcome. that was some mighty fine lovin and you are showin your appreciation.yesseree, I am still the man" Guys forgive me - I am only messin here. I read one time, I think it was Mark Twain? Said he could live for 3 weeks on a good compliment. I know how that feels and as for ML, hell I've been livin off that last time for 5 months !! Good that you are not jumping to conclusions, and are still detached. Does it help to think "hey, I did this for me?" I know you missed that physical connection with H, as I do with mine. But if you think you did this for yourself as well as him and the R ,it'll be easier on you if he decides to get sexual anorexia in the coming days. Sweet dreams Crushed! betcha you'll sleep good tonight!
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