This morning I got to sleep in another hour due to weather and not having to be at work until 8am. As I was leaving H was very attentive regarding how I felt and if there was anything he could get for me (feeling guilty tha he got me sick). I said I was fine but if he had a moment to collect last year tax returns, last 3 pay stubs and his 401K statements. Brief pause, then "okay" then "are we filing joint taxes this year?" I said I don't know, whatever he wants, he said that it will be better for refund if we did. I said that I guess we'll be filing joint.
Left for work and here I am. Busy, hectic and feeling really numb. I had someone stop in that knows about my sitch and is very sympathetic - she was worried about me because I keep getting thinner. I am doing okay though. Hurts but it's this numb ache at this point. Moving on. Had a dream last night or the night before about meeting someone and the first kiss. That's what I'm looking forward to - the butterflies in my stomach when the first kiss happens. I have so much more to experience when it comes to love and care....
