Crushed,

Sorry for my brain freeze on your sitch before. I remember now that you had moved back into the bedroom. But if I also remember correctly you two had a nice night the night before you left for your cruise. What happened? When he came home from his family at christmas nothing changed in his mind? That has got to be tough living under the same roof knowing that papers are filed, etc. It must create tension on some days.

As for my H, if you remember H's OW lives 3k miles away, this is an internet/phone affair with only one physical meeting back in June. For me it is torturous, because I dont have the threat of wondering where he is, if he is with OW, but I do have the torture of spending everyday with my H, and seeing how much we enjoy our time together (and we spend ALL of our free time together) and knowing that he wont kiss me, let alone ML and that he is waiting for me to go to bed at night so he can stay up late and talk to her on computer. Then knowing that when he is at work she calls him at least 3x a day (cellphone bill). Does she not care that he is at work...HELLO? Last night I could not bite my tongue and I told him that I am sick of knowing about her, I am sick of him and that I want him to get the divorce. This is like mental cruelty. ANd It is not a good environment for our 2yr old. We dont fight normally - never did. But I feel so unloved and I am sure that my D can sense something.

What was your H's reaction when he saw you after you got home from cruise? It just seemed right before the cruise you two were starting to make some progress.

Let me know.
Sun