Between the last post and this, I was tucking in my W and what you were saying started to sink in a little more and I realized how you must be hurting. I then thought about how frustrating it must have been for my W in the past year when I was pushing so hard. Granted, we learned a lot about communication and we really did a masterful job at narrowing the gap between us, but the C really helped me chill out about changing her. I'm sure she's disappointed in me in certain ways. I sometimes see her gushing over beautiful houses and certain cars which I can't afford. Hell, I was genetically disposed to be a college dropout and I'm doing the absolute best I can with the tools I was born with...sorry sweety. I remember one poster who justified his HD position by talking about all of his financial success and material things he provided his W. Over the past year I've learned that there's very little I can do to change her feelings. Maybe it's a good thing that external stimuli don't make her horny...maybe it would work against me or make me feel inadequate. I never looked at the downside of having a spouse whose horniness can be controlled by other things. It might come at a cost. Wow, imagine seeing her horniness disappear during a financial crisis that I was responsible for...it would make me feel like my world was falling apart. Maybe I should appreciate the predictable consistency of my W. Crap...who knows.
Anywhere is walking distance if you have the time
-Steven Wright
